Being an adult has completely gotten the better of me lately and I’ve lost my mojo for writing. If I can’t write from an honest place, then I can’t write. Thus, my hiatus from the blog.
But this morning I got the bug. The urge to write came back. So I’m going to tackle a subject I’ve been wanting to blog about for months: Legacy
For years, the fifth graders in my school district have read Maniac Magee by Jerry Spinelli (great book, and the kids get a kick out of the fact that we have the same last name). In the very beginning of the story, the author talks about Maniac Magee’s “legacy”, and I usually have to explain to the kids what a legacy is.
Subconsciously, I’ve always tried to be someone who would leave a legacy. I think I’ve only recently become aware of how important this is to me.
When I was fresh out of college, the first job I got was as the varsity cheer coach at my high school. For NINE years that job consumed me. I wanted to build a respectable program. I wanted to help young girls be confident in themselves and proud of something. I wanted to take a team to States. I wanted to teach those girls what it was like to work hard. This would be my legacy. Or would it?
After I stopped coaching cheerleading and transitioned into coaching CrossFit, I thought that might be my legacy. I liked helping people become healthier and more confident. I liked supporting people in their self-improvement. And I liked the whole fitness scene. But ultimately, I realized coaching CrossFit wasn’t what I really wanted to spend my time doing. So it likely wasn’t going to be my legacy either.
Then there’s the teaching gig. In the fall I will be starting my FIFTEENTH year of teaching (Holy cow, I’m old!). I do love my job. I love it most because I get to help kids become creative thinkers, independent learners, and hard working people. At least, that’s what I try to do every day. This is a pretty significant part of my legacy. Or so I thought.
Because then I became a mother.
It is so clear to me now. This will be my legacy. This is my purpose. This is why I’m here. I am lucky to have been granted opportunities in my professional life to effect change in other people’s lives. But at the end of the day….that is my professional life. Without a doubt, with 100% certainty, I can say that the single most important job I will EVER do is be a mom.
It’s so overwhelming. But so amazing. To know that I get to watch Hannah (and hopefully others) grow, and learn, and struggle, and rise….that gives me such a sense of satisfaction. My kids will live on after I’m gone, and the lessons I teach them will extend beyond the years that I walk this earth. That’s so important. And that’s why I’m here.